I don't know what I'm doing. Really. My teacher told me that she can't see a direction in my life, and I agreed. I've been all over the place but haven't settled on a thing. I like creating art, photography obviously and drawing too. I'll never give that up, but I have no idea whether I will continue studying it in a school. Because, next year, I shall be paying for college. Yikes! Senior year is fun and all, but also a little scary.
Currently I am in three AP classes and yearbook photographer and my youth group's photographer and president of the art honor society at my school and continuing to study Chinese Goju. I would also like to devote some time to looking at college majors and futures and jobs.
I am also attempting to sleep. I'll let you know how that's going later. But. I had a very enlightening discussion with my teacher about college and majors and life in general. I suspect I shall have several more in the near future. One of the major things I want to do is travel. For a long time I've thought that I shall do that by teaching ESL. I came to think this because I am very good at English, (although I can alllways improve) and have studied a foreign language (Espaņol). I intend to study many, many more. I also have had an acute interest in asian culture and I want to visit Japan and many other asian countries. I don't, however, want to major in Spanish. Or asian studies. Or English. Or particularly art, which may seem weird but I don't want to have to get a job where I make art for other people because it would be a making this thing I like and enjoy doing into a draining job and I think I might lose why I love it so much. Any suggestions?
Also, my monitor for my mac that is inseparable from my computer is dying. It retains the previous screen in a creepy ghosty way and has these different boxes of grey values. Therefore, I can't work in photoshop very well at all. No Ps = Sad Jani. I shall have to invest in a new computer soon. And I don't think I'll be able to. But if I do I will likely update my programs and stuff. So that will be nice.
On another note, I'm getting better at drawing and have a ton of stuff to post for all of you. With the computer and time and everything I don't know when you will see them. ):
I shall continue finding a direction and living. If you have anything to tell me say it below! My comment section is always a sad and empty place. Bring it to life.